The Force

• The will to remain sane when everybody around you seems suddenly weird
• The strength to stall urself, when u just wana lose ur rear tyre and spiral out into oblivion, down the cliff
• The concious effort to hold onto ur reigns when there is a push to let the horses run amok
• The courage to take the deepest test of character and self, when you are doubting ur self and ......... ur self ashte
• The tolerance to allow for coincidence and to understand others !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Too much of it can lead to erosion and overriding of the self...... The ability to draw a line)
• The stability to not let ur mind conjure things out of thin air, To get a grasp of reality and to stop hellifying ur life......

Exactly when these and many more such things are missing, does ur cousin come to u for emotional support !!!

It is time to enter a cocoon...... To get out of me and watch me...... To float, to drift....... To let the rudder go...... there aint no autopilot mode, i know, but such a depressing flight ! No peanuts, No movies, No hot air hostesses........ Just a pilot sitting alone, holding the stick....... ahahahahah ! even thats boring nowadays.......

A lonely child, a bird of sorrow
is all she can see,
'cause people came and changed her as they pleased
She'd wake up in the morning and then she'd kiss the flowers again
Sometimes thinks of people who're not the same

Till
Im
No
one
again

But then again i see that loneliness and sorrow haunts a lot of people in a lot of ways, at a lot of times..... and i question my self...

Papers in the roadside
Tell of suffering and greed
Here today, forgot tomorrow
Ooh, here besides the news
Of holy war and holy need
Ours is just a little sorrowed talk

Is it so?!?!?! I am confused ..... It is a little serenity and calm in my thinking that i need.... It is a little more stability .... aargh ! A little display of ego and yearning of self respect..... yes..... no...... wait........ change for the sake of others......... philosophy....... made by others........ must focus on what my mind says..........

What is happening to me?
Crazy, some'd say
Where is my friend when I need you most? (did i have one at all sir?)
Gone away


The answer shines like a beacon...... it does...... the shelter from the storm..... the soothing presence...... the halls mint for the soar throat ....... A temporary relief, until the storm passes.....
My road to stability.............

Is that too in jeopardy, I fear???