Sweet pain

(I am extremely confused and in the dark as to why I am documenting this but here goes... )


Tonight at approximately 8 pm ended a long tenure of togetherness, that i could only term as a celebration of life... Two people I know will never be as together as they were until tonight... Naturally the parting was painful and tearful, with both not needing to say much (I am imagining...almost sure this is not how it happened) but just conveying to each other in minimal direct words what the situation was and how they felt about that moment and each other... But time , it goes on and life too goes on for both of them... and hence they too went on, well to their homes....

Some ppl who dono what I am talking abt are already thinking of a "breakup" between a "couple" (these are all terms given in the Standards of the Book of Love.. some other suffocatingly irritating cliches that can be found there are "propose".. im already seething)... U may continue until u read the following words... I mainly have two things to comment on wrt to my rendering above..

1) Them themselves.... I have known both of them together and separately too... I think I can safely say that neither was like what they were when they were together... An extremely high level of sheer understanding and predictability amongst each other, which is rarely seen nowadays purely because its so scary !!! People don wana risk themselves with such involvements...hey wait, I'm drifting into point two... Let me say what i wanted to say here... they are both great and to the both of you KUDOS ! Everyday from today for a while, look at what u had and do not feel misery at its absence but marvel, wonder and continue to enjoy the precious thing u both had created and nurtured successfully for FIVE YEARS !!! That they were true friends is painfully obvious by what all they went through.. they laughed, cried, shared, fought ...... a whole circle !!

2) And tonite it culminates... Not necessarily cos there have been developments, Nature has realigned itself suitably to correct this imbalance suitably, to bring them twogether, as much as possible, back again... in a painful manner as i was saying... but it is a kind of sweet pain i feel, where there is a lurking happiness too which they will experience because of the memories they share.. Such an indulgence is deemed to risky by ppl nowadays, hence the noticeable upsurge in self defense (emotional) enforcements... I myself was hoping to share such an experience with somebody, but the holy soul denied me that sweet pain as it quickly learnt its lessons in life apparently, and started "dealing" with people differently.... Ya screw you too ! You would think that the level of trust you are required to mortgage in return for something special and valuable and amazing, wouldn be much of a risk but no... ppl always are used to taking the safe route right?!? Less traffic.. Less obstacles... less risk... Life.... Sigh... F**k it !

To them both tho, I have the following to say right at the end...

"Don't you cry tonight, I still love you baby... Don't you cry
Don't you cry tonight there's a heaven above you baby, Don't you cry tonight!"


(Also confused as to why i wrote what i wrote... I had suppressed it so well all this while !!?!? where did all THAT come from? )