What were they thinking!?

A. When they wrote the following :

Just washing it aside
all of the helplessness inside
pretending I don't feel this place
Its so much simpler than change...

These words make you despise them sometimes and wonder abt, at others

Aa. When they thought of the fact that a pair of protagonists, one of each sex, running around trees professing their love in extremely exaggerated, imaginative, poetic phrases could actually mean entertainment and make money...and they were right...AND they upgraded it by throwing in some more hapless, colourful humans cos they thought 'oh the hero and heroine must be feeling lonely and embarrassed'.... (don't even get me started about their dancing)

E. When they thought of extremely irrational, unrelated and embarrassing ads like "bingo chips", "har kutte ka naam tommy nahi hota..." etc etc (we seriously lack flexibility in laws relating to use of guillotines...)

Ee. When they thought two computers should be allowed to exchange "dayta" (most americans, notably one boda genius Vint Cerf say it that way) ..... Voila! Internet!

U. When they came up with the notes and chords and the structure of the song 'Nothing Else Matters'...I've recently become obsessed about this song...Quite intricate the way they improvise on this song in concerts...Or is it just me...

Oo. When they made movies like SAW, wrote books like FountainHead and obtained patents on ideas like 'bar code reader to charge your prepaid account'!!!!!

The answers to these 'What were they thinking!?'s shall remain obscure...The capacity of the human mind...immeasurable probably...

If I could have my wasted days back
Would I use them to get back on track?

Stop to warm at karmas burning
Or look ahead but keep on turning

Do I have the strength to know how I'll go?
Can I find it inside to deal with what I shouldn't know?!

could have my wasted days back
Would I use them to get back on track?

You live it or lie it (2)
My Lifestyle determines my deathstyle (2)

Keep searching keep on searching
This search goes on...On and on

Frantic tic tic tic tic toc!!!!

Tritheeya is good, what with Akshaya Tritiya coming up...Nan thitheeya aagde iddre saaku...

numb and tired

(Head bent eyes dead)
........
Doctor ge phone maadi appointment fix maadu
Nimmappanige hosa shirt tankodu....avru change maadi ready aagli, naanu hogteeni avr jothe doctor hatra....

Bari anna maadu....Nenne raatri saaru fridge nalle ide...Adanna tegdittu bisi maadu saaku...

Beligge tindi tinnode martodvi alva? (Lifts head, Surprise in eyes...)
Nange hashu! (slight hint of weakness/sadness)


Why was I able to relate to her emotions..........

:)

Head ek lekin us me bhi headache!

The TOI

Some gifted people have been given the opportunity by TOI to express their views on topics of controversy in the Sunday times... I salute TOI for this very purpose... I think that the articles appearing in page 6, titled "All that matters", are of very high caliber both in terms of the content and the semantics... A very firm grip on the language can only taunt the reader and excite him as he is continually perplexed by the point of view being unraveled in front of him...

Notable amongst these writers are Swaminathan (Swaminomics!!) and Shashi Tharoor... Those of you who've read the latest of his offerings, will agree with me when i laud his sense of humour and his wisdom...

Mental Note : Must resume reading his book...

reflection x

Aaina mujhse meri, pehli si soorat maange
Mere apne, mere hone ki nishaani maange

Knowledge

is power, sez my friend

Today very early in the morning, i learnt what happens to a person suffering from a rather severe case of frontal temporal lobe problems...

It was visually demonstrated, with particular attention to detail, that :

1. The patient must be given only a general anaesthetic..Its very important in such cases for the patient to be attentive

2. The patient's head must be to a side and the patient must be very still.

3. All you have to do to relieve that person of severe headaches, is to cut open his head, remove a square piece of skull using a drill and a powersaw...

4. After this rather simple procedure, you ask the person to lift his/her hand and flex the fingers...

Voila!

The question you have to ask yourself is this: are you willing to take a bullet for the man who killed your son? Does "do unto others as you would have them do unto you" apply here, Jeff? Make your choice.

My affiliation with weird movies continues with trainspotting....

rannygazoo

Extremes?

Can you imagine what it feels like to have someone sit you down and tell you that you're dying? The gravity of that, hmm? Then the clock's ticking for you. In a split second your awe is cracked open. You look at things differently - smell things differently. You savor everything be it a glass of water or a walk in the park.

But most people have the luxury of not knowing when that clock's going to go off. And the irony of it is that that keeps them from really living their life. It keeps them drinking that glass of water but never really tasting it.

Those who don't appreciate life do not deserve life.

A psychopath(?)'s words.....

Static

One word which eliminates a memory leak of approximately 4-5 Gigabytes of Memory.

Rather powerful eh?

Also powerful when it surges from one person/object to another person!

Musings

If somebody constructs an entertainment center, not unlike the forum, but with limited amenities and entertainment outlets, could it be called a 'small' ?

Indifference

Apni tasveer ko aankhon se lagaata kya hai?
Ek nazar meri taraf bhi tera jaata kya hai?

Paas reh kar bhi na pehchaan saka tu mujhko
Door se dekh ke ab haat hilaata kya hai?

Perfection ko improve karna mushkil hai....

I love to walk in the rain....then no one can see me cry

Belated happy birthday to you, Aamir!

What a day!!!

Time : 12:12 AM (Sunday the 18th)

Mental State : Doped, Delirious

Physical State : Aching body parts, notably neck and left leg...Pinky toe of right leg numb


Screeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeem for me Bangalore (ROOOOOOOOOOOOARRR!!!!)
Screeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeem for me Bangalore (Bigger ROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOARRRR!!)

You just can't deny Bruce Dickinson...But wait! I'm getting ahead of myself! For to justify the title of this post, I'll have to rewind to the mornin!

A rather quick sojourn on my Discover caused self to be present in Yelahanka at around 11:10 am! (35 mins I took i think). Ive always loved this place, the calm area, the ppl here etc etc

So once I knew that I'd be going to palace grounds on the 17th of March (details below ;) ), I thought I'd visit my dear friend Krishna :) And such a quick visit it turned out to be! Cos time reeeeeeeeeeally flew from 11:10 am to 2:45 pm when I left, amidst us trying to watch 'Being Cyrus' and our visit to coffee day and the oh so delicious dinner! It had been a looooooong time since I'd eaten so much that it filled me upto my neck! And Krishna threw a in chocobar that I can never resist I think :D Innumerable thanks to Krishna and his family for the whole half of Saturday!! I was extremely happy post the visit to his house and in the right mood to attack Palace Grounds...Thanks Kris :)

And so I entered the arena! Parking...Easily found, to my surprise...Entry into the grounds...Even easier! Just a coupla frisks and I was looking at a sea of people who were united by their love for Iron Maiden! And in this plethora, I was to locate one Mr Srinivas...Boy am I glad that I was with him for the whole show!? Thanks Srini for making this show rock for me :)

Found him and his colleagues gathered somewhere and showing off their newly bought t shirts and sipping pepsis which seemed to have a rather generous amount of water in them :)
And then the painful wait.....

.......

The whole evening could be described as a sinusoidal entertainment package! FTN (a band), winners of Campus Rock Idol competition, sucked big time! But then came Parikrama to solve all that! Oh the violin, oh the vocals, oh the whole band!!! God bless you and inspire you to create more such music and live forever!

Then came Lauren Harris who sucked too...She was just hot and running around stage, which is a turn off kinda...But then her father and his band came on stage to just fuckin kick some ass!!!

I won't go into the details, cos most songs will be unknown to my readers...But the ones I enjoyed most were The Trooper, Fear of the Dark and Hallowed be Thy Name.. And in the remaining songs, most of which I hadn't heard a lot before, Kattu was there right next to me, giving super trivia, and just sharing his enthu with me to keep going!! You deserved last night and all the fun Sheeni! :)

Never have I found myself, without the stamina/strength to sing!! I opened my mouth at the end of Hallowed be thy name to say "Hallowed be thy name" and I could only get till "be"....What came out was just exhaustion cos Maiden rocked sooooooooo much that I remember thanking God somewhere in the middle for having created the world or something like that! :D :P

There is something about 20,000 people screaming and singing songs with you, which gets to you and causes your adrenaline go thru the roof! :)

Oh Well, wherever, wherever you are,
Iron Maiden's gonna get you, no matter how far!!!!!

I was at EddFest!!!!!

The C progression

The C progression is quite a unique and amazing piece of musical material.
It is made up of the following chords :

C
Dminor
Eminor
F
G
Aminor
Bsus
C (again in the higher octave)

Many many songs have been composed on the C progression and the C scale.
Most notably : Jeff Buckley's Hallelujah

I've usually maintained that music can very easily betray emotions and speak to u...
Well, if you look at chords, thats what they do too! F for instance is that weird emotion which can depict uh...this strange feeling inside u almost like surprise sadness or happiness...Its typically a transition chord to move from one emotion to another

'D' though is ur typical happiness chord...Similar thing can be said about G...But u twist D a lil bit and then u end up with 'Dminor' again more inclined towards sadness!

And what can you say about C! They teach u this one firsht...Cos its easy and simple and just plain nice!

So the C chord is a mixture of Nice, Happy chords and Mysterious sounds and music which can make u sad and happy at the same time...

Tada!?!?

So the progression C, is made

Ruminate

Ruminate means the following :

1. Chew the cuds
2. Reflect deeply on a subject

Little did I know

Now I know that conferences and coffee talks can get boring...

But this post, atleast this part of it is not, about me...Its about what THE hell is going on in the mind of the guy sittin next to me, who proceeds to chew, bite and probably even eat a major chunk of his water bottle! And lemme establish the fact that, this guy's humor quotient and brain power is to be highly admired and clamored for! He's just wow! in what he does!!

Talking about humor, i found out that it can be expressed in several ways...For instance, its quite funny for some ppl to point out to the chewing guy described above, that the guy sitting next to him (aka me) has noticed the fact that chewing guy is chewing into, probably quite bio friendly and recyclable but still, plastic!! and make chewing guy aware of this sub conscious act he was committing harmlessly, immersed in his own world.... I don't subscribe to such methods of humor, but no doubt it is quite enjoyable to see guy next to chewing guy (aka me) squirm in humiliation and embarrassment, which let me assure you is quite temporary, nonetheless real...

Of course it doesn't matter that guy next to chewing guy (aka me) totally admires and looks up to chewing guy and would've prooooobably not at all wanted this weird feeling...

NEhhhhhh!!! Then again, the world doesn't run on stupid feelings...

And oh, I also saw a team mate of mine furiously chewing a pencil today out of sheer tension and frustration...

Holiday

Let me take you far away
You'd like, a holiday...

Exchange your cold days for some sun
Good times and fun

Howda?! Really?! Hahahahahahah you must be kidding....

Or

London (Goa), Baibee!!!


More the latter I think....Atleast I'll make it happen...Make something happen...

Name

"What's in a name?!" is quite a popular adage alright

But I had this whimsical thought...And started checking out "name".blogspot.com, where name iterated thru the list of first names of my friends...The names that I use to call them or refer to them...

And I realised two things :

1. NONE of us have our first names,sweet and simple, as our blog urls.
2. All those who stole our right to assign our own nice name to our blog url, have NOT blogged in aaaaaaages! There are some of us who just haven't tried using their own first name (name.blogspot.com still available for use), but for some of us, I saw that the owners have well and truly given up blogging!

There is no bottom line...

Folly...Nice word

Wally mite look weird, but nice dilby I got this saturday...
True, quite true...

Anger

Really really easy to react and satisfy urself, give in to the emotion...

But I learned from an artist, who practices this theory btw, that its quite hard and probably the best way, to check yourself verbally when u are angry. Cos for one thing, with time ur anger WILL subside (no arguments accepted) and what u say when u are angry can make u feel like having an embolism later, when u reflect on it.

And saw a "mad" guy's response to wild, probably unreasonable allegations by another "person" (I will refrain from using adjectives here :D )....And quite generously admired the way he handled what undoubtedly was anger! Way to go!

I am lucky to be surrounded by such inspirations :)


P.S : Sometimes, u need loud music....Really loud music to drown ur own thoughts!

St Anger round my neck, He never gets respect..... :)

Bring your daughter to the concert

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Iron_maiden_%28torture_device%29

March 17th...I'll be there...Gates open at 3 pm...I'll be there at that time, if I can help it...

First big concert. Quite excited.

The inquisitive shall replace the last word of my subject and run a google on it. Reader's choice tho....after all, it ain't a matter of life and death...

Ill you sion

If somebody doesn't tell you what you wanna hear, you can't be sure that that person is lying to you...

Neither does it mean that its not the truth...

Free your mind, Neo
Just free your mind....

Boy, is it hot in here!?!

For some ppl, over this weekend, the temparature mite've risen steeply, undah the collah...

The reasons could be different and shall remain unexplored in this discussion

For me though, it was the plain fact that allllllllll the windows in my room were closed :D

I realised this when I started sweating like a varaha, whilst I was chatting with the Sheetal

Btw, did you know that balarama was ALSO an avtaara of Lord Vishnu?? I must approach some one with expertise on avtaaras of Vishnu...Or those who befriend them maybe?? ;)

Mood : Mischievous, Intrigued

Its the nexus, of a crisis...

What do you do when you are inexplicably happy??
Well, you go out to your terrace and test the newly laid out three seater jhoolaw!

And of course u carry along ur trusted maite, cos you just can't shake a song off ur bloody head!!

And so u are gazing at the stars and the oh so bright moon and u are at peace...Wait something's bothering u as far as the whole setup is concerned...There's no power so its just you bein soaked in the moonlight, the breeze is as pleasant as it could get! AHA! Thanks mom!! For switching off the light which was spoiling nature's extravaganza B-)

Ah come suzie dear lets take a walk
Just out there upon the beach
I know you'll soon be married :(
But you want to know where the winds come from...

And then u decide u've sat down long enough, strained ur neck long enough looking up so u wanna lie down...And as u are realigning various body parts, Mr Slash begins to slash through you with his soulful, intricate and damn melodious Guitartistry!!

The melancholy, the beauty of the music, the rhythm almost matching the back and forth motion of the swing on which u are lying alternately hiding and revealing to u the moon! It is mysterious how, many simple and seemingly innocuous things can come together to cause that weird feeling inside you similar to being content!!

Que sera sera!

In life, somehow, what has to happen will happen! And you just read ur lines and act accordingly and flow with it...Call it a 'script already written', 'fate' or anything u wish, but it is true...Cos no matter how hard you close your eyes and pray for God to listen to you, to make the pain go away soon...This emotion in me is elegantly captured in Robbie Williams' song 'Feel'

I sit and talk to God and He just laughs at my plans (I apologise for the blasphemy on robbie's behalf!)

here is a nice lil post by ktk about pain...This will clearly illustrate my next point about key events in life which make u press the pause button and write such posts...A perusal of the above mentioned link (and its comments too! ) can only enlighten ppl!

Yeah so key events...They can only make u wonder in general and make u think, but can't make u learn!! Here's the nub of my monologue...Learn from your mistakes!? Not too sure that works mister/miss whoeever coined that phrase...

And while we are on pain, different ppl, I see, have different mechanisms of dealing with it...Silence, blogs, bite ur teeth and other such optimistic and "brave" medothologies, Denial, Avoidance...I have also found that shuddering/sighing and ejecting liquids from the body is also an effective way!

Err um...Drifting here!!

Notable notes!
1. You don't have much control over ur life...What has to happen will happen...You mite be wise enough to "listen" to some ppl's words and "think"
2. Pain...Karan's post is just too good! Nothin to add...
3. You relished typing all this crap cos u and only U know tat it ain't exactly crap...noooooo I don't think so...

Good night and good luck and Hallelujah!

Ae zindagi gale lagaa le
Humne ni bhi, tere har ek gham ko, gale se lagaaya hai na?? :)

Karnataka Bandh...Kitchen open!!

I made chakkli!! :D

After the gol gol merry go round routine, I decided to improvise but stick to the basics...So the alphabet! Hee hee

Whilst I was busy reinventing the A and B, my mom conjured up the cutest possible 'M' (for Murali :D ) outta nowhere!! Check it out its stylish tooo!

Thanks moooooooooooooooooooooom!!! :D

Mood : Happy!

To anonymous chick who mite stumble upon my blog,
I also possess other cooking talents and frequent the kitchen as a sous chef more often than not!

A double ton

Shilpa and I went to Kodak Whizz last evening
There, a woman was getting the following words engraved(to be read as "printed") on some thing for somebody :

"Inspirational Genious"

Us geniuses spotted the syntax error and pointed it out to her...That woman kept saying "Thanks a ton!" ... I didn't get it the first two times at awl...

Today was gonna be the day
but they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
realised what you've gotta do

(On a slightly different topic)
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do, about you now
(God, please make this stop!)

Things learnt today :

1. The ability to analyze/criticize a situation wrt urself wanes as soon as the two ppl inside you are at war with each other; One who thinks you were wrong all the way and the other who stands up for you and says u did what you could

2. One moccachillo can be consumed for upto an hour, provided there are suitable songs running in the background

3. There are different techniques to console/cheer up a person : Inspirational words not adhered to by the speaker herself, Silence (typically u lo :) ) and self sacrifice! The last one is still moving inside me with its profound impact! I don't like it at all though...Never considered it a worthy way

4. At 11.37 pm, in the dead calm of the night, some songs really really hit you! Thanks to all the ppl who contributed to me being associated with those songs!

5. The esoteric practice of saying "cheers" when drinkin somethin comes to us from Pirates. Apparently, to guard against their fellow comrades poisoning them, a loud and hard clash of wooden/steel mugs of alcohol was common practice to ensure that the alcohol of the clashers mixed by spilling into each other's mugs (Courtesy : National Girish Channel, Vishwajeet)

200 posts old my blog is
Another seemingly significant number with coupla zeros in it
Blah!

Road Trip

Got a solid beating at around 11.30 am this saturday morning...
The barber beat my head to death, after pouring an ample amount of navratna cool tel on my scalp...I felt, at one point, that I wouldn't survive the ordeal...

The aftermath was surprisingly pleasing...I floated back home, all ethereal...But not before Girz had pinged me abt a random, unplanned bike trip in the outskirts of the city without any purpose...

If any of Girz's close relatives are reading this, all hell should be breaking loose riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight abt now...

My gaadi needed some refreshments (air, fuel checks)...So did his...After doing the needful, we discussed some elementary stuff like how to catch the attention of the other (three long honks), scheduled stops (tender coconut water!! Oh boy do they rock or what?!?!) and a rough roadmap of our jarnee (none)

And we brace ourselves and control our excitement and set off! Only to find an elneer place some ten feet away from the place we started...'Ah' we both exclaimed and had our first elneers...Off we were towards outer ring road then!

Capable and mean machines that we have, in almost no time we had reached innovative multiplex. Carried on and reached our beloved new campus. Shiny! Okie U turn and back on outer ring road which is like a huge boa constrictor, winding its way thru the city! Roughly Girz, I and Zidane (my shirt) 'Discover'ed (just to introduce my bike's name...to be read as 'covered') the following places :

1. Banaswadi
2. Hebbal
3. Nagawara (No no we didn't reach japan)
4. Jalahalli
5. Yeshwantpur

Whatsay?!!? 'Definitely Male' huh??!?! (there i go again...This is something for girz' bike thats all pls ignore sorry)

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Went to salaam-e-ishq...Realised the following :

Pyaar
Prema/Preethi
Love
Kaadhal
Ishq
Amour
Amore
....


All of the above, I dislike...A lot...The concept and everything associated with it...

I sit and talk to God
And he just laughs at my plans....

Hey You

Hey you, out there in the cold
Getting lonely, getting old
Can you feel me?
Hey you, standing in the aisles
With itchy feet and fading smiles
Can you feel me?
Hey you, dont help them to bury the light
Dont give in without a fight.

Hey you, with you ear against the wall
Waiting for someone to call out
Would you touch me?
Hey you, would you help me to carry the stone?
Open your heart, Im coming home.

Remember don't give up at all....You just can't....lack of choice....

The cookie phenomenon/syndrome

I was quite mercilessly criticized by Miss Garfield that all I was doing on the first day of a long weekend was coming online a lot....Well to some, 5 times a day mite seem a lot....

But ! I also went out and got some fresh air and well.....This!



(Tee hee)
you can see HVGs legs n all
(/Tee hee)

[ If i used actual html tags, sakkkkkkkkataag byskota idde from ze blogger dude!! ]

Now this mite seem to be a true to its nature, expensive innocuous little cup of coffee to you right?
Yup I agree too...The imperative word in the previous sentence to me though, would be "little"!!

So its a typical lazee afternoon and the Girs and the I head to coffee day to imbibe their pathetic and overpriced caffeine based offerings...This way we blow some sodexho and nobody's the loser...

I'm bored with the usual cappucinos, the moccachillos, the laahtthehs, the espressos, the cappachillos (no no don't order!! I'm not reading out the coffee day menu, neither am i waiting for an order!! :D )
So I browse thru the menU and look at a relatively new name "Macchiato" ! "Ooooooooh" I went..."Whats thees?" A drink has been untasted so faaaaah?! So all hyped up I proceed to order the unknown one...While Gish brushes aside the menu and says nonchalantly "one Irish cofee"...

Here's the real deal...


Howard's Giant Gonzalez vs My Midget !!

Here's an explanation for this blog, which I hope will give ze clarity to my confounded readers...Well at least some of 'em ;)

I am like a weird black hole for such kinda stuff...I go to places and order stuff with exuberance completely filling my cherubic face and me waiting eagerly full of expectation!!!...........Only for the bubble to burst and my co-compatriots laughing and rolling on the floor at the outcome...And me left with the result of my own doing... This whole thing started with an incident where I ordered cookies in Cafe Cofe day, expecting a plate full of cookies of different kinds with chips maybe and loads of chocolate! All that arrived were two small tiny little smidgeons of baked batter and i was charged 20 bucks!

Ally Bally to Eagle One
Ally Bally to Eagle One
All loose ends tied ... I repeat ALL LOOSE ENDS TIED! Returning to Eagle's Nest
Over and out!! (of 27 Rs for the Macchiato)

Numero Uno

sihT tsop lliw eb ekil siht. soC ym dnim si bmun morf :

2 x 1 = 2
2 x 2 = 4
2 x 3 = 6
2 x 4 = 8
dna os no........

oN, I did ton ekat emos s'lpp ecivda dna og kcab ot loohcs...

I saw ta a eno raey s'dlo yadhtrib ytrap...naM! tahw ERA esoht!?!?! woH si a eno ry dlo dsops ot psarg a yadhtrib ytrap??? ll'I ekat eht ksir fo gnidnuos ekil reldnahc ereh....

etA ytnelp fo sadeeb oht !! adeeb erdna adeb allanna!
dnA ereht erew rehto sdik gnitsrub snoollab!! tsomla evag em a 'nikaerf traeh kcatta!! nmaaaaaaaaaaaD sdik !!

esohT fo u ohw era eht nrobbuts, tnatsisrep eypt, t'nia on gnihton ereh!! oG emoh....

Come on ally buck up !!

Jhoom le has bol le pyaari agar hai zindagi
Saans ke bas, ek jhonke ka safar hai zindagi


Zindagi me jo bhi karna chahta hai karguzar
Kya khabar barson ki hai ya lamha bhar hai zindagi

:)

Who was right and who was wrong?

Well, I'm supposed to be an adult now and I still cant completely figure that one out! But at some point, late at night and near sleep, the ideas and the disagreements sorta dissolve and you are just left with people!

And people were no different then, than they've always been.....And always will be....

Young girls get their hearts broken....

Men and women suffer alone over the choices they've made....

And young boys, full of confusion, full of fear, full of love and courage.... grow up stealthily in their sleep!

- The Wonder Years

Society

Man is a social animal

Define social.

1. Relating to human society and its members
2. Living together or enjoying life in communities or organized groups
3. Relating to or belonging to or characteristic of high society
4. Composed of sociable people or formed for the purpose of sociability
5. Tending to move or live together in groups or colonies of the same kind
6. Marked by friendly companionship with others


This is all my dictionary threw up! In my current mood, I would not mind a 100 'alt-tab, select text, Ctrl-C, alt-tab, Ctrl-V sequences'

How fucking ironic that 'Its a bittersweet symphony that's life....' is running in the background now...Or is it? I am not surprised...My entire sub conscious and part of my conscious self I think sought this song out...

The 3rd definition of social highlighted for the users' convenience, is what struck me the most! Cos i'd imagined social to mean either no. 6 or no. 1

I am feeling the full force of meaning no. 3 and it has caused me to go numb kinda...To make me question my beliefs, to lose my sense of right and wrong and in a nut shell to be in a position quite ably demonstrated by my most fav character on TV, Chanandlar Bong :

"ok rock.........Hard place.........ME!!!"

Oh you fucker! How do u make me laugh hard enough for my stomach to ache and create watery drops at the corner of the eye at the same time!?!? (something mite be wrong with the sentence, but I don't care, what?)

Does being social mean losing ur values and integrity and 'aligning' urself to the 'norms' imposed by others?! How did they become norms?! Did somebody do what they liked and that became the norm? Who makes these norms? Does being social mean losing a sense of independence and a sense of what is ok and right to you? Whose life are we leading?

Oh this sounds so cliched, the previous paragraph...But I CANT FUCKING HELP IT !

'I look at the world and I notice its turning, while my guitar gently weeps'..... Said the beatles...
Aren't we all turning helplessly with the world Sir Paul?!?

More .... More loud music.....

And after all.....

Hooked onto this song a little bit nowadays...That happens u know, some songs refuse to vacate ur brains...Next week I mite get bored of this song little bit too...

Noel Gallagher just blew me away with this...How nicely, just plain nicely has he written this song and cast it into a casual, melodious tune...As you listen to the highly idealistic and fantasy land lyrics in that very easy and mellifluous tune, you are (to be read as I am...I taken in another world...

Ryan Adams' attempt to recreate the magic has, well, met a mixed response I must say...After all, the creator of the song acknowledging and applauding the effort is not enough for some...And also, it being nominated for a Grammy is also easily overlooked...

As I listen to this song for the third time continuously as I am writing this blog (and mite listen to it some more times) , I can only wonder about how it suits my current mood...

To Noel, Ryan and that special someone who just never will cease to be special to me.....

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after an
You're my wonderwall

Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me


Afterthought :
And all the roads that we won't walk are winding...

Somebody complete this??!

I seem to have stumbled upon this piece of shayari...My brain did, in fact...

bool gaya sab kuch
integer nahi ab kuch

Can anybody complete this??
Its lame a little bit i know...

An end and a beginning

Adios my man! What can I say!? Your career speaks for itself!! The true Aussie spirit has shone thru you and you shall remain my favorite cricketer of all time! And the best leg spinner in the recent past !! Who dares to attempt what you have, who dares scale the heights that you have!?

Shine on you crazy diamond!!






And you, you cunning little devilishly brilliant bloody goal poacher! You have ALREADY started showing what u wana do @ Old Trafford!! God save those defences who underestimate ur touch, skill and astuteness!!

Rock on man!

da day

Bel beligge super nidde
Oversleepings...

As I try really really hard to open my eyes, and simultaneously check my smses (talent :D ), I see an innocuous looking sms from my aha oho geleya as follows : 'Ignorance is NOT bliss.'

I read it exactly 4.5 times (5th time half i read and let it go...did/could not find any context semblance and/or meaning)

Go to work
Harried sounding TL calls up and asks to talk to Korean man whose name contains a lot of 'y's 'o's 'n's and 'g's...Lemme try and get it right... Its Seong Young Yoong...Or Yoon...Or whatevah

Mildly aware of headache at this point....10:45 am

then the rest of the day kind of fell into this algorithm...It was like somebody (don't think it was God) had hatched a plot, had a nice easy chair ready and a drink with a yoohoo straw in hand and went "aah! lets watch this and enjoy"...

while [[ true ]]
do
me
done

Key highlights of this infinite loop :

1. A machine is supposed to hang on to its disk...And telnet connections u have open to that machine, are NOT allowed to just freeze up....And when machine was physically examined, turns out it had just 'disowned' one of its dicks....disks...hic !

two hours lost in a seriously escalatable call...

2. When u are making coffee, and the machine that dispenses milk has a tricky tap, always ALWAYS keep mug close to the tap...Milk fizzing off at an angle will ONLY land on ur shirt making u look like a doofus whilst a pretty girl there stands giggling away to glory at ur feat/fate...

3. Forgot keys to my draw @ work...Inside which resides the ear phones to my precious! ze ipod...Had to endure me on my way back home....

tresting....

Chita Chinta Ubhayor Madhye
Bindu Matram Visheshata
Chita dahati Nirjivam
Chinta dahati Sajivam

!!

In the Sanskrit language (and the hindi lipi too), the difference between the word chita and chinta is just a bindu, a dot.

Chita burns a dead body(lifeless)...Chinta burns the ones who are alive...

Now this is what i call a blast from the past !! High school sanskrit rocks!!

Addicted

Sorry Mr Mustaine/Sheeni

... I forgot you said "One day you'll walk alone"
Said I need you, does that make me wrong?
Am I a weak man, are you feeling strong?

The heart was blackened, it's bloody red
A hole in my heart, a hole in my head.

The full stop summarises everything. 'Ah! Ashte' annothara....

Como estais amigo??
For the pain of those we know
Can we kneel and say a prayer?
They will never (how much)know we care.....

No more tears, No more tears....

New year...Stopped believinin resolutions...Buncha crap...Just another day...
Pain exists in various forms...

Promise

Two hearts that shouldnt
Talk to each other become close
In a town much like a prison cell

People speak our names
On the street in hushed tones
Oh the stories theyd tell
If anyone would listen

You come from a town where
People dont bother saying hello
Unless somebodys born or dies

And I come from a place where they
Drag your hopes through the mud
Because their own dreams are all dying

And when we walk down the street
The wind sings our name in rebel songs
The sounds of the night should make us anxious
But its much to late when the fear is gone

I will meet you in the next life, I promise you
Where we can be together, I promise you
I will wait till then in heaven, I promise you
I promise, I promise

Theres so many fighting
To get past the pearly gates
But nobody ever wants to die or get saved

Their intentions arent that good
And I can smell the asphalt
Thats their personal road to hell being paved

And when we walk down the street
The wind sings our name in rebel songs
But its much to late when the fear is gone

I will meet you in the next life, I promise you
Where we can be together, I promise you
I will wait till then in heaven, I promise you
I promise, I promise

I will meet you in the next life, I promise you
Where we can be together, I promise you
I will wait till then in heaven, I promise you
I promise, I promise

prince of darkness

Hafya evah been in so much darkness that u cudnt see ur own hands held in front of your face?
A night time experiment, with the assistance of my phone crooning away 'nothing else matters'...

I have nothing more to report abt it...Was not scared of all the darkness...Was at peace...Probably cos I was irritatingly wide awake at 12:15 am and the song was just damn bloody soothing!

Oooooh babel! A movie quite similar to 'crash', an oscar winner if i'm not mistaken...
Imagine some of ur worst nightmares, some of the worst positions u can be in...scared, terrified and helpless...There u have babel! Very rarely do such movies come out and thats probably for the good! Brad Pitt is again quite marvellous...But definitely the story which deserves special mention is that of Rinko Kikuchi, who quite expertly plays the role of a deaf-mute, a subject which has for ever dominated over me, almost...I dono how to react to ppl who are deaf and/or mute, I dono what my feelings are for them...I am at a total loss! Similar were my feelings as I watched her quite masterfully depict the thoughts of a young woman, who is deaf and mute...I wont say more...

Some of the dialogues/scenes are quite harsh and in your face...A must watch for ppl who like movies with some 'stuff' !

Prank

Dear Diary,

I was recently the victim (no no too harsh a word obviously...), the target rather, of a rather well thought out practical joke...

Dust that coats my hat, is from a dozen towns
Dust from shooting down another dozen clowns (should get this line outta my head...)


The purpose of this blog is for me to have a record of it and for others to enjoy my endurance :)

At approximately 3 pm in the afternoon i receive a call on my phone sayin there is an emergency situation at one of the places where our product has been installed...You see I was acting as 'off hours' support @ work during the holiday period, which extended from 25th Dec to Jan 1st..

Now you mite say, hey! 3 pm definitely isnt 'off hours' is it?! Yep! Introducing u to the bozo, the MTV bakra who fell for the prank hook line and sinker! I was kinda anticipating a call in the holiday period and jumped at the first opportunity...

The details of the call are unimportant here...Mainly because they further expose my stupidity and gullibility, of not having caught on to the fact that the caller was fed some cleverly procured information specifically designed to deceive the callee aka me...

Anyways I bought the fact that there is an emergency and started working on it!! As Griz says, the laptop was out in three seconds!! (commitment to work to be noted here) and before I could think of anything else, I had called somebody else from work to alert them of the emergency and I could feel my body heating up and my pulse quickening...

And then I receive the phone call from the perpetrator, revealing all....The 'mastermind' so to speak...And in the heat of the moment, it still took me a while to realise that it was a prank...Yep thats how caught up I was.......

what a FANTASTIC prank alla??? Especially when its holiday season and u are quite bugged and bored and want to have some FUN!!

Well, was fun atleast, ATLEAST for the people who thought this out and contributed to this brilliant scheme...Am truly honored to have been a part of this and personally thank everyone involved...


Q(uite) E(asily) D(one)

Weird friends

I have weird friends.

One of them scraps me repeatedly, compelling me, reminding me, badgering me to attend our school reunion... And he himself goes outta town on the anointed day....

He also sends attyuttama gross jokes which make me swear fervently to not meet him as much as possible... (hope he is not reading this blog? If you are, hey hows work man?!)

And then we have this precious piece from another one of my acquaintances...Lets call him groovy boy for lack of a reason.... heh

Groovy boy: hehe..maga 28th ninda xms bere..!


murali: whoa
mazzor
enzoy maadi


Groovy boy: crap maga...
metallica kelkondu band hodithayidini ivaga


murali: l..l
rock on brother!

The sign 'l..l' is the ultimate rock symbol btw...no idea what it means, but it signifies rock, metal, cool stuff, pizzas, bloody marys, humming washing machines, and anything thats hip n funky! For the official list of things that it signifies, visit

http://www.liststillincomplete.com/stopclickingthis/nincompoop.php

Groovy boy: ya man..yahooooo. (!?!?!?!?)

I mean where the hell?! does yahoooo fit into a purely energetic l..l based rocking conversation!?!?!?

What if i had started talkin more abt tallica n other stuff?!?! :O

Devre devre....
(curtain falls and the handsome protagonist (aka me) continues mumbling away into the darkness.....)

embolism

Well, I've heard a lot about being an architect of one's own life....Thinking in a particular way.....Taking control of one's life....

And I've went 'hmmmmm' at that...neither thoroughly supporting it nor vehemently disagreeing with it....

But a feeling of sheer helplessness, a feeling of anger(grinding teeth and desire to beat fists on table), a feeling of shock, culminating in a state of numbness

is what I am going to narrate to u about, now....Some of the statements mite be quite blunt, but hey! I'm not exactly famous for mincing my words am I?

You've lived ur life wary of her... You do not even know what she IS, forget about how to react to her and her 'tantrums'.....Is she mentally challenged? No doesnt seem like it.....Is she physically disabled? Certainly not....As you've grown up, you've neither felt the need nor has there been an opportunity for you to actually find out what happened to an approximately 30 year old woman who looks and seems to be fine, but lacks the mental maturity of one! A ten year old is who u are interacting with....A ten year old who throws tantrums and causes u, a 16 yr old to be slightly embarrassed in front of other relatives....

Well, one fine chilly night is the right setting for the story to be recollected and possibly even relived aint it??

Flashback about 28-29 yrs ago, when there was a 1-2 yr old small girl, who had just fallen ill....The place is Benares....And here we have a DOCTOR! the girl's grandfather...The mother and the unfortunate girl, were supposed to travel by train to some other place, where the father would be waiting for them...The mother rightly refuses to travel whilst the baby is suffering from diarrhoea...The Doc grandpa on the other hand, ignores these pleas, saying he doesn't want to incur the wrath of his irate son in law...And so the journey begins....

Thats where the life of Tulasi(I didnt even know her fucking name! Such a beautiful name...her nickname sonu was being used ever since I've known her) took a twist...The diarrhoea becomes more severe and causes dehydration, which directly affects her brain....I'm still too fucking shocked and numbed and sad to make all this bold and create an effect or draw attention...

Her fate was decided for her, by her parents/grandfather/what the fuck!?!?

Did she have a say in her life? No
more fucking importantly, DOES she have a say in her life?! NO
Its not like she needs constant supervision, but she will not grow mentally to make decisions for herself...Her marriage was a hasty decision and hence a disaster...A lot of ppl suffered because of that...

ALL this, because of some stupid ppl deciding for u? Making a wrong call??
Alright maybe it wasnt a stupid shocking decision, but nonetheless A WRONG decision, COMPLETELY out of ur hands? I'd hardly think there are enuf 1-2 yr olds around, who would straighten their diapers, stand tall and categorically refuse to travel by train on account of their delicate disposition....

Inference drawn : Life can fuck you....Ppl and circumstances around you can fuck you....So bad that if u watch ur own life from a third person's point of view, it can be scary sometimes...

If Tulasi is today, given an opportunity to get out of her current state, and know, analyse and think about what happened to her and what could've been without that accident..........i dont even wanna think about her shock....

Fuck I'm too shocked and numbed to say anything more.....Her life....A life....Valuable life?
Gone....

Divine bliss!

Have you ever touched silk? Pure smooth and enchanting?!

Ok good

Have u ever sat down, held ur arms out almost parallel to the ground and touched silk??

Presenting to you, the Hyundai Getz!!

:D

Banthu konegu adrajji! (Came finally, its grandmother!)

Silver colour!! All style, all masth! Was @ work today battling issues of design dilemma,s incomplete logs, irate Team Leads and missing carrom board strikers!!!!! (last one lead to quite a few lol moments, which helped me get thru the day :) ... thanks vooth! )

Little did I know, that I should have left office and headed straight for home! Nonetheless, when I came back and got the preliminary pat-on-the-back punch-on-the-shoulder with my brother over with, he said lets take it for a spin!!

Me asked cautiously, 'when will u let me drive ur car lo?' He, being the munificent, 'big aortic pump'ed guy he is (no no seriously) said 'ya ivatte odsu..' (drive it now only)

I did give him some scary moments, but boy does the steering wheel listen to me?!?!

And I begged the engine to make itself heard to me, but it just wont budge from its soft, regular purring!!

And the panasonic system HAD to play one of the most mellifluous hindi songs made in recent times, 'aao na' from ..... aaaah u fill in da blanks!

Altogether a most sooooooooooooooooooooper experience!
Getz u here Getz u there Getz u everywhere! :)

Wah wah

Read it twice to phir jaake samajh me aaya saala!

Think where man's glory most begins and ends
And say my glory was I had such friends.

- William Butler Yeats (God bless his soul!)

Mur(ph)ly's laws

Ok I've had these things in my hat rack(translates to my head) for a while, so wanted to write it down before it 'fades to black'..... :)

This is something I have experienced/felt strongly quite a bit and my mind has done a 'uh! What just happened there?' or a 'This is way too spooky for it to have happened 4187 times'

Disclaimer : Somebody else mite have already written this elsewhere or can come and claim it in the name of narnia....Well I've got two words for them : "Sure"

There mite be additions to these mental musings....

1. Its only/exactly when you are thinking about something naughty/cunning/wrong/disturbing, that something will happen causing you to not just come back to reality, but come back with a jerk or a bang! (Like you bumping into something, or getting pricked by something sharp or the Toyota Qualis in front of you choosing to brake abruptly and u braking hard and breaking ur bike's indicator!!)


I'm also prepared for the contingency where my unfortunate readers dont get a word of what I am saying......

Take comfort in the fact that there's more sublime crap to come maybe....never stop hoping ;)

If you are you, am I me?

Dear readers,
This is the literal translation of name of the play I went to today!

:D :D
:D :D

The four :Ds have a significance mah frend!

Ever heard of the fabulous hindi movie called angur?
No? Okay you mite have heard of Ulta Palta in Kannada?
No? Okay then Shakespeare's Comedy of Errors?

THERE we go! Thats what the play is based on!
Me telling u the plot of the play won't spoil it at all....Cos the brilliance lies entirely in the adaptation of the plot and the enacting of it! Sheer brilliance I tell u the dialogues and the performance of the cast, which includes notable (may not be to every one of my esteemed readers tho ;) ) names like SKC (Sihi Kahi Chandru), Srinivas Prabhu, Jahangir (of Papa Pandu fame).....


Ok for the uninitiated, the plot is as follows

Two sets of twins (yup, 4 ppl)
Get separated during childbirth, but in pairs (yup, 2 pairs of dissimilar twins...as in AB AB)
And they end up bumping into each other ( and how!?!?) , causing their respective relatives quite a bit of confusion !!

I seriously advice kannada lovers to get a sample of this play
Playing @ rangashankara this weekend and sometime later this month too.....

huh?

I prayed, you know?
Did u listen?

Did u want it this way?
Why does it always rain on him?

Down in a hole
Losing my soul
I try to fly
but my wings have been 'so denied'

Help him help himself atleast!?
Ninnishta en bekadru madko hogu....

Maxed out...

Tuesday evening... Slightly bored....

Teammate comes to me n rags with following 'problem' which requires an algorithm.....

Given an array A of numbers (sorted, unsorted, negative ....could be anything) , find the most efficient (focus more on time than on memory) algo to calculate MAX ( A[i] - A[j] ) where i 'is less than' j ( couldn't write the 'less than sign' without a hack, cos blogger didn't allow me to do so....you learn something everyday.......)

Do something better than O(n^2) please....
Of course no solutions like sort the array and then do the calculation n stuff....

Where are the comments, with ur solutions??!?! Flowing like mud around here.....

O.S : I think I have written an algorithm for the above problem....Too lazy to check it for multiple cases.....Cmon Kattu!

Hey Dave, moving on IS a simple thing...

Goodbye my lover
Goodbye my friend

Wah wah

Ajnabi hai na hum paraaye hain
Tere hi jism-o-jaan ke saaye hain

Ek tere aitbaar ki khaatir
Dil ne kitne fareb khaaye hain
Tere hi jism-o-jaan ke saaye hain

Zindagi se gila kiya hi nahi
Zakhm khaaye hai muskuraaye hain
Tere hi jism-o-jaan ke saaye hain

Ek tu hai ki teri raahon mein
Khud hawa ne diye jalaaye hain

:) Worship and loving of the beloved taken to its heights.....
I know not why I am sounding so formal!
I know not oh alas tis but only oh no! :D

Tech blog

Warning! Do not press cscope -c in ur unix terminal
Putty conked big time for the me.
THanks.

Please do not mistake this as some te**orist programming terminal, coding in ur*u. As I was writing this, I was aware of the fact that thru their advanced tracking algorithms, they might sense that I wrote the word "te****ist" in my blog and nuke me outta this world....
Scared...

Guitar is back!

My baby!

The store guy who restrung my guitar called it "Saraswati".....I felt devotion surging thru my veins and caught myself feeling devotion surging thru my veins...

Am also looking to restore that faltering derailed guitar career of mine...If only Mr Victor Albert would be available for some discussions regarding that matter.....

God helps he who helps himself!
Patience maguve.....Fade to Black and other covers are not too far away......

All in good time! Peace all...

No one gives it to you - you have to take it!!

The FBI are like Mushrooms....You keep them in the dark and feed them shit!
- Mark Wahlberg, The Departed

I don't wanna be a product of my environment, I want my environment to be a product of me.
- Jack Nicholson, The Departed

First steps

A kid clings onto his parents for support for most things, as it grows thru life.....

Eating
Walking
Shitting
Stuff....

As we grow, I think we slowly start stopping depending on our parents.....One by one, we cross off our list (Jeez! I can even walk while eating now or vice versa!!) Our needs/dependence now turn towards more serious issues and starts involving other ppl around us.....

But seems like we never give up depending on somebody for something or the other.....Most most importantly, emotionally, I don't think one ever stops depending on somebody.....



You depend on somebody....Doesnt work? Doesnt matter.....Go some place else...Set up camp....I've seen this happen.....A disappointment of the past being forgotten/accepted/conquered over by a new triumph! Another shoulder to lean on, another finger to grasp and walk using.....

Let my heart go
You never let my heart go
Just let my heart go
And let this heart be fucking still!

Double oh me

While my guitar gently weeps.....

The first string of my guitar just broke last night....I am not finding any other word to describe it...

My heart skipped a beat and the momentary shock was quickly replaced by that dead calm that surrounds me nowadays.....A visit to the repair shop ashte.....

eeeee wwhooooo aaaaaack!

Ha mommy outwitted!
ZZZZZZZ all!

Faustian?

1. When a distinguished but elderly scientist states that something is possible, he is almost certainly right. When he states that something is impossible, he is very probably wrong.
2. The only way of discovering the limits of the possible is to venture a little way past them into the impossible.
3. Any sufficiently advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic.

Arthur C Clarke, ladies and gentlemen.....

WiKI RoXx!

I hadn't noticed this

Man alive!

With everybody going goo goo ga ga (no?! just me?) over google and its products and innovations and services offered etc etc, here's something awesome I noticed in Firefox.....

You open mozilla and start pressing Ctrl-T (openin new tabs) in a frenzy opening orkut and gmail and god knows what( no no not THAT maybe :P ).....And then u hit a site like Google personalised home page, which u think should be ur rightful home page.....So you go to Tools->Options->General-> and u find an option which says "Use current pages" to be ur home page.....

I was like...hmmm lemme seeee.....And used that option.....Opened a new firefox window

And voila!! All those pages are being opened in tabs for you.....I was quite happy and amazed at that


Ashte.

Unforgiven?

Come lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear
She loves me not, she loves me still, but she'll never love again
She lay beside me, but she'll be there when I'm gone
Black heart scarring darker still, yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Yes, she'll be there when I'm gone
Dead sure she'll be there!


Lay beside me, tell me what I've done
The door is closed, so are your eyes
But now I see the sun, now I see the sun
Yes now I see it!

poetry

coupla thought provoking passages :

The Rainy Day


Written at the old home in Portland

THE day is cold, and dark, and dreary;
It rains,and the wind is never weary;
The vine still clings to the mouldering wall,
But at every gust the dead leaves fall,
And the day is dark and dreary.

My life is cold, and dark, and dreary;
It rains,and the wind is never weary;
My thoughts still cling to the mouldering past,
But the hopes of youth fall thick in the blast,
And the days are dark and dreary.

Be still, sad heart, and cease repining;
Behind the clouds is the sun still shining;
Thy fate is the common fate of all,
Into each life some rain must fall,
Some days must be dark and dreary.

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow


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...No man is an island, entire of itself; every man is a piece
of the continent, a part of the main. If a clod be washed away by
the sea, Europe is the less, as well as if a promontory were, as
well as if a manor of thy friend's or of thine own were. Any
man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind;
and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it
tolls for thee...


John Donne

Sensitive build result files

IF THIS FILE IS PRESENT, "IT'S MEAN" THAT BUILD HAS SUCCEEDED (!!!!!!)

Some files are very emotional when it comes to builds succeeding.....

Whoa!

I Love my brother!! :)

How do you avoid your self?

You were an island and I shud've passed you by....

Twisted Logic

You go backwards again
You go forwards again

Kinda like a yo yo oy?

Shoot me again I ain't dead yet!! Muhahahahaha

BRING IT ON!!

'Pah!'sword

You've told an application to remember ur password a while ago.......Probably need to rewind the time machine to a time when u were a tad less mature.......

And then come zooming straight back to today, where that very password is needed to be entered elsewhere.......Ah! But how to recover saved passwords u ask? Well, unless its stored in mozilla, me knows no other way.....

So I go to the website and say 'forgot password(hit me! hit me now)'

And the question I am posed with is "What is your favorite brotherhood?" (undoubtedly an ingenious security device setup by erstwhile by a juvenile me)

After some rofls, I started to implement the workaround........

Flowers

Bury me softly in this womb

Oh I wana be inside of you (background)

I give this part of me for you

Oh I wana be inside of you (background)

Sand rains down and here I sit

Holding rare flowers (oh I want to be inside of you)

In a tomb...in bloom

Oh I want to be inside...

Down in a hole
losing my soul


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What would touch me deeper, tears that fall from eyes that only cry
Would it touch you deeper, the tears that fall from eyes that know why
A lifetime of questions and tears on ur cheek, I tasted the answers and my body felt weak

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Well there was a time when u let me know
whats really going on below
But now you never show that to me do ya?
But remember when I moved in you
And holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was hallelujah!!

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"The perfect blossom is a rare thing. You could spend your life looking for one, and it would not be a wasted life."

Dumbass....

According to Orkut, I'm a "That 70's show"
Distinction percentage, my mind reminds me.....

Nadili Nadili....

Forgive me father if I've sinned....

Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday dear blah blah
Happy Birthday to YOUH!


Belated wishes to you oh dear....Hope you are happy wherever you are

Belated wishes for yesterday and premature wishes for tomorrow....Do you remember what tomo is? Not a big deal, but still....

Murali,
You may yourself not remember down the line what tomorrow is....Hence the etching onto blogger.com...

quotable quotes

These are from live, living, walking, breathing, eating, talking ppl I know

You never know who can get hurt by what you say.

A girl always breaks up a gang of guys........

Don't trust your friend with a secret if you don't trust yourself with one.

Helidd maathu kelalla (means "Doesn't listen to you"......this one was about a dick........A dick doesnt obey the host to which it is attached apparently....Only I'm being too blatant about it...NOW i see the sun....)

knowlezz! tanks ppl.... Maybe more to come.... :)

Mukha nodi mane haaka beda...

Fig 1 : Sand....Stealth....Phone Camera.....Cat!


Title of post is a kannada proverb, which means do not judge by face value...

Exactly that is what I should not do in ze future is what I've learnt!

First of all, a prelude to this post please? Bheemeshwari, Jungle Lodges and Resorts! The destination for our first ever section offsite....Which meant hanging out with unknown folks most of who shall, almost as a rule, remain unknown folks after the outing too! But what about the ppl u know and who u work with? Well turns out u get to see very interesting sides of them! ;) Intrigued??? Lets dive right into the details!

Friday the 27th of October!

8:15 is bus departure time as intimated through electronic mail the previous day. Ally being pursuaded to have a spot of breakfast by the almighty mom! Looks at avlakki with undisguised loathing cos at that unearthly hour, he'd rather eat leaves growing on his compound wall....

After some avlakki has been forced in, a distressed look at the clock with the minute hand at 12 and hour hand at ohfuckeight!, ally makes way for the gate rather hurriedly! And who must appear out of the neighbor's house, but a shining pearl! Turns out some article had to be returned by this delicacy to our house and I bumped into her without any form of any regret! "Whoa! My day's started out pretty well!" Me thought.... At that very second, God was goin "he he he ya sure paapu!"

We manage to leave for bheemeshwari finalleee at 9:10 am....Instead of takin a direct road to vidhan soudha, we are taken for a ride around it...THAT! that is the point where I shud've taken the hint and braced myself....All I did though, was munch on some lakeview sandwiches and pastry.....

Well, wat do i say of the journey oh patient readers?!? All of FOUR FUCKING HOURS to cover a measly 100 kms, albeit most of it was off Mysore road on a bumpy track.... To make the journey just that smidgen more pleasant, there was bellowing of its passengers in what was termed a 'singing competition' called antakshari....As if this wasnt enough to stifle the musician inside me, there was also a dance by a grown MAN in a tumbling, bumbling bus aisle to 'Kajra re'....Man! Once u've seen THAT, u've seen it all I believe (MY EYES MY EYES!!!!!!)

The only bright spot was probably that delightful face, that smile, that calm demeanor amidst all the chaos that stood out and caught my eyes! Who was she? Which team is she? Where does she live? A weird sort of exhilaration! Must make contact with this particular instance of Class Human! is what registered in my mind....But noh noh noh! I didnt chose the topic of this post jus like that! Lets just say that she was in more than one way a rather huge disappointment, once I got of the bus and well...."got" more of her!! Lets just leave it at that ok? It hurts way too much to talk about it! Alas! Akatakata!!!!! :D


Now the story takes another twist....On landing at 1.30, we were censured quite deservingly for being whoppingly late...And hence were asked to wait for lunch....And how did I spend that half hour u ask? By playing frisbee with a project and a section manager! :O Man it can be a relaxing and entertainin game!

Lunch...well wasnt just lunch was it?? There was some mention of champagne being served which evaporated like petrol being exposed to air....My chances of gettin some into my own system went kaput! Still there was no dearth of beer though....And someone somewhere better be damn bloody appreciative of the fact that I did not drink!!

Post lunch was a coracle ride, where I saw three crocodiles!! While this isn't exactly an 'aamir khan swallowing a fish that he caught in DCH' kinda proud moment, it was pretty cool to watch this deadly, deceptive creatures barely show themselves and disappear instantly! We all sang "jhalak dikhlaaaaaaja" like good boys, but nothing doing....

After that, some quality time spent amidst the hammocks and small rock kinda formations humming to myself, splashing kaveri maa water on me fayce, taking in the scenery and saying things like "ah this is the life" out loud...It also involved me sitting on a rock which had some traces of tar on it, the afternoon sun just starting to melt it....God help my mom take THAT off mah pants :D

And then THE moment....it started raining!!!!! You have an expanse of water and u have water coming in from the heavens and oh my god thats a scene to behold!!! And when some laidies wanna party in the rain and get wet, you just sit there, with ur lips sealed (probably in awe) savoring the sight and some hot tea baibee.........

Thats it follks! Time to get back onto the death machine and trudge back to the place we know as earth..err ...bangalore... Wait a minute! Lets make it more tiring shall we? We'll add an hour this time....FIVE ! thats the number! We'll take five hours to get back!! Yippee.....Get off bus @ 10.30 with "mercy! pls show us mercy!" on our lips and rush back home in ten minutes on mah bike!

Phew!

Vacation

Fig 1. Hen and cock


Mysore

The place where I used to have bucket loads of fun as a kid! The place where I played with big boys when I was a kid, a heaven only magnified by the fact that summer holidays were spent there....Now I've heard many ppl saying its a dull dud place where nothing happens, time stretches to eternity and blah blah


I'm running away with my description here...one thing at a time pls....

Left at around 8....Got to Shivalli restaurant unscathed....Then started the peril....I started insisting vehemently that I would drive the remaining distance to Mysore...Dad thought, eh? havent been adventurous for a long time....So gave me the keys..

Was one of the funnest parts of the whole trip.......Cheching at 90 sometimes, I made the road mine! Constantly admiring the concept of banking, I rode the streets as though I was infected with wanderlust! Caressing the steering wheel and stroking the gear shaft.......(err....um....where am I going with this? )

Alas @ Srirangapatna my brother woke up to the fact that he was missing out on some quality fun....So he commanded me to slow down, step out of the car, keep my hands on my head....No no just to hand the wheel over to him.......


Reach mysore and I had a well planned itinerary for us in mind.....A cunning relative of mine tried to mould that into his favor....Nothing doing me said (thats me standing up for what I wanted....)
and proceded to watch the Man Utd vs Liverpool even though the other guys went to KRS and saw water dance to dhoom machaale dhoom machaale dhoom! Even though it seems frivolous that I would prefer a football match over an outing with my relatives in THEIR house, but thats what I wanted to do and would be most happy doing.....

Oh ya, saw last formyula one rayce of schumi....Masth man he is i thinks....

Monday saw both sons of the Rao household waking up rather late and looking sluggish (as was intended :D ) Within no time, it was afternoon which had been reserved to see "Don" by my brother....But we left a lil bit early and visited karanji lake ! (sound familiar?? "Koorakkukkaralli kere....telakk karanji kere......." :D :D ) Man what a nice place?! Pedal boating and future discussings with brother for alf hour to 40 mins and then a visit to the local aviary....Man the camera in my phone has never seen so much action! Snapped and snapped at everything from spoonbills to peacocks (Refer to fig 1) to rabbits running around.....Tranquil, serence and beautiful!

Then Don @ 35 bucks per head! (Can yu beleev that??? 35 bucks for a top notch hindi movie!) Not too bad a theatre either.....No multiplex but not gandhi class seating either.....Well, post movie, I was filled with a lot of questions, awed by udit narayan's rendition of khaike paan and driving around mysore to get back to our residing place while avoiding crackers on the road and resultant heart attacks!!


Tuesday saw me visiting a relative's place and playing cricket with a 3rd standard goin kid! Man he was small......He taught me how to do "swing bowling".....Hadnt played cricket for ages! And he stumped me with some astronomy related questions too! :O Where did all the info I gathered about stars, eclipses and other shit go??? Major leakageonomy!!! Thats when it most hit me that I so want to be a kid but have grown up and its inevitability staring at me!! Che


Mysore...The simple place....Where u can cover 10 kms in 15 minutes.....Where people talk to u with a smile while giving directions.....Where there is beauty.....A nice place and always close to my heart it will be!

Questions

What if I got it wrong?
And no poem or song..
Could put right what I got wrong,
Or make you feel I belong
What if you should decide?
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life.

Coldplay is a smart band
Cos, you know, they only ask the questions but dont answer them.......
I'll go a step ahead and say that its unimaginably healthy and best to NOT EVEN ASK THE QUESTION SOMETIMES!

No answer no khich khich
Peace everywhere
Screw all
Hallelujah!!

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Epitome

I've seen the man use the needle
Seen the needle use the man...........

Bathtub tips

Preparation
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1. Clean the bathtub
2. Pee (Lot of water stimulates ur urinary system)
3. Winamp -> Music selection -> Remove Shuffle

Here's my list of songs which I am generously lending :

Pink Floyd - Learnng to fly
R.E.M - Everybody Hurts
Iron Maiden - Phantom of the Opera (Preferably being listened to after 6-8 months)
Coldplay - Fix you
Metallica - N0thing else matters (acoustic)
Iron Maiden - Dance of death
Velvet Revolver - Fall to pieces
Coldplay - Speed of sound
Iron Maiden - Afraid to shoot strangers
Iron Maiden - Hallowed be thy name
Velvet Revolver - Loving the alien

4. Get some drinking water...This is because of dehydration once you get into the tub, especially since u've followed step 2 in Preparation phase.....I am not generalising here, but makes sense to have water which u can drink.....Also Ironic how being in water can make u want water more!!

Tha Bath
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While you are performing step 3 in preparation, bath tub shud be filling up with water....Select right mixture of hot and cold water......Don be afraid of hot water......Its good and soothing

During bath, one is allowed to get out and come to computer to change song which is playing...Pre bath song tastes will differ from in bath mood....Fore warned is fore armed.....

Also, if the song volume on ur music system is causing vibrations in err ..um ... some parts of ur body, time to decrease volume to avoid post bath parent kickass

Also, if there is no drinking water, u will feel the effects of the dehydration when u get out of the bath tub to perform above mentioned actions....You mite even see urself swinging and swooning....Relax its just a mirror...

Post bath
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Approximately when u 1/3rd of Loving the Alien has been completed, u remove the stopper in the tub to let the water to drain.......After all the water has gone out ("I never noticed....how lovely were the aliens......"), get up...take another shower, dry urself nicely and

FLUMP!!!

Thats u hitting the bed......Congratulations on completing an hour long bath.

Live shit binge and purge!!!!!

Yup
Its finalleee here

What is it about Metallica that makes me go "yikes!!" or "yoicks!!" or "hooooah!!" or "aikeeaah!!" or other sounds which denote excitement!?

Is it the fact that when the camera focuses on him just before the concert backstage, James Hetfield choses to say "Hey fags and sluts!!" to the crowd??? (No thats not the reason, but couldnt resist mentioning it here lol :D )

Is it the fact that they've gotten equally heavy and melodious in their music, with masterful guitaring and mind blowing lyrics??

Yenopa.....I like them....And nothing else matters..... B-) :cool

Am gonna watch and savor this 2 dvd set like fuckin hell yeah!!!

My little bubble?

"......My heart's like an open book, for the whole world to read......"


- Home Sweet Home by Motley Crue

I wish this were true....

Concealment, pent up anger maybe even grudges are commonly available articles in today's market i feel....either that or its being push marketed to me!

Formality and reservedness is what is given to u, whether u like it or not....Instead of being shouted at and the issue cleared, silence is observed....the heat of the moment clouds the brain....Trust and Consideration are at an all time low....

I do wanto take this space to see it from the "victim"'s point of view....when one is wronged and hurt by u emotionally, it is hard, for one, to clear the dark clouds of pain and look for the teeny tiny possibility of a misunderstanding....
But the bottom line is, which according to me has stood the test of time, that ANYBODY deserves a second chance, a consideration especially if ANYBODY is ur friend.....

And in the case where u are wrong, and u have the guts/courage/righteousness/humility/acceptance (pick one or more or add more), to admit that u were wrong and to be genuinely sorry is something which is taboo.....Yeah u are not given a chance....And its almost like the sorry coming out from you is just a namesake and is not meant by you....

Good....

P.S : I'll forget this post soon.....sooner than the others....Have that feeling....

Worst kind

The worst kind of frustration is when you find nothing/nobody to blame it on, including yourself.....

Reality check

Bommarillu
Lage Raho munnabhai

I had literally camped in PVR yesterday...... 12 to 7 pm

As I watched both of these romantic comedies, 'lage raho' also involving strongly pushing a message home, I could not help but wonder how unreal both of those movies were wrt the romantic aspects! My readers will bear with me and let me tell them that the way in which hirani sir drove home the concepts of "Gandhigiri", truth and honesty in present day society were truly laudable and quite ingenious!

But that aint wat me talkin abt....In the hustle bustle of today's world, very rarely do u get to bump heads with a girl that u are bound to fall in love with at first sight.....and even more unlikely is her coming back to u and saying that if she didnt bump heads with u again, she would grow a horn! (heroine of bommarillu....an absolute doll, but some vacant spaces up top...)

No you don't get away with girls, after speaking colloquial language like "vaaat", "apun ka", "maamoo" and convince her u are a professor tackling linguistic dilemmas! NO you won't jump and dance in the road, as a bunch of college girls inside a bus are yelling at u that the only silent girl in the bus is in love with u, at the top of their voices! No!, you wouldn't dream of falling in love after getting engaged to another girl and offending ur father who has commanded over u for 25 years.....

(I have cycled between two movies above...u might be confused)

And the girls themselves are pretty smart nowadays...they have high ambitions, high fantasy based aspirations of a man....They want things like a tall man, an older man, a man who is rich, a disciplined man, a well dressed man, a man who can play the piano and juggle peacocks while brushing his teeth....

How about love? How about a man who can give them love? And who is waiting to do that, at the slightest approval??

I do not know why I am so obsessed with reality and demand the adherence of movies to it....Temporarily I switched off yesterday and hence was able to enjoy the movies thank you very much....After all, classy acting and dialogues cant be ignored forever! :-)

Uneasiness

Kyu gardish-e-mudaam se ghabra na jaaye dil

Insaan hu, piyaala-o-saagar nahi hu main


The emotions surge in me, a (hu)man, a normal (hu)man.....

Never saw this coming
So soon that is

A tough few days coming up.......

Running over the same old ground
what have I found
same old fears
wish you were....

he IS here.....hope he helps....

To Girish : one man's fun is another's hell.....

A prayer

Oh God Help

- Me curb the desire to be somebody else
- Me realise and accept that, which cannot be
- Her achieve her goals...And give her as much as she deserves not more not less, but do not fail to recognise what she has done
- Him in getting "everything" right in his life from now on
- Him in his troubles
- Me curb the desire to be somebody else
- Me realise and accept that, which cannot be
- Me curb the desire to be somebody else
- Me realise and accept that, which cannot be
- Me curb the desire.................................................

Am I?????

Orkut is very stringent, I knew....What with its apparently oh so funny donut msgs n all, it also gave out the impression of it being buggy/crazy sometimes....But this just takes the cake....


This is something serious guys....We should all pose this question to ourselves.....
Are we prone to tentacles sprouting out of us anyday??? (ooooooooooeeeeeeeeeeeee alien music in background)..... Whoa! MIBish vibes...

:D :DDDD

"habba - a regression"

Practice makes perfect doesnt it?? In how to put one's foot in one's mouth, I seem to be achieving new levels.... This is after we finished our show....



Me doing my bit with my gang....In one of my more tense/focused moods.....En usiru ennadilla...

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Took me some time it did!!! http://www.microsoft.com/athome/security/children/leetspeak.mspx

Apocalypse Now

Oh man, the shit piled up so fast in Vietnam you needed wings to stay above it.

Shit... charging a man with murder in this place was like handing out speeding tickets in the Indy 500

What do you call assassins who accuse assassins?

You're in the asshole of the world, Captain!