Monday, May 29, 2006

dont u shiver??

Had to siphon this off my head......

Time 8:55 AM
Mood : Sad

You would be too, if you dreamt of sad things.....Not by choice, lemme tell u

First, I dreamt my brother was coming back home.....Upon asking my dad as to the time of his arrival, lo ! the brother actually arrived !!!! We are full talking and all, and the lights went out ! Blink ! Blank ! Black !

And then, it hit me ! I was half asleep and half awake when i realised that he aint coming back for atleast three more months.....The realisation shook me to my very core....felt really sad, and because of the inadequacy of warm clothing or the monsoon breeze sensing my vulnerability sent one its toughest soldiers, I shivered like crazy !! The mental realization and the bitterest breeze ever together made it a total kaala paani experience ! :(

Then I manage to get entry back into the crowded pub called sleepland.....where i start dreaming that a person very close to my heart has stopped talking to me and is not even making eye contact with me !! I stand there right there as the person walks by and there is no sign of recognition, forget the warmth that i am used to !!!! It seemed so surreal yet real !!!!!! That knocked the wind out of me......I woke up not knowing what to say and did stuff like a zombie !!!

Am here going now to attend a training ! oops its 9 already !!??!?!?! FUck the bitch in the bathtub, the day just gets worse n worse.......

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Arz kiya hai

Me n mah frend go to coffee day aitha? then frend is full ready and hungry n all full decided full to order chamak at once ! But me is undecided, tho hungree......Frend rattles of long order...."I'll take a balck forrest pastree and a veg wrap"........It sounded long pa.....

And disinterested ordertaker with state of the art mobile billing machine turns towards me

I say "I'll take two minutes"

I'll let you calm down, get off the floor and leave a comment at ur own leisure......

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Take time to read this

Was sitting watching tv with parents flipping channels, when an old faded print movie came with the late Mr Gurudutt in it. Me was always mystified by stories i'd heard abt him and his movie making techniques and skills as an actor etc etc.....So continued to watch it.....And lo....wat was to turn up in the movie, but one of my all time favorite songs sung by Mr Hemant Kumar and picturised oh so amazingly on the one and only Mr Gurudutt....I guess he lives on in ppl like me....

You might need some time and brain power to digest this one :)

Jaane Vo Kaise Log The Jinake
Pyaar Ko Pyaar Milaa
Hamane To Jab Kaliyaa.N Maa.Ngii
Kaa.Nto.N Kaa Haar Milaa
Jaane Vo ...

Khushiyo.N Kii Ma.Nzil Dhuu.Ndhii To
Gam Kii Gard Milii
Chaahat Ke Nagame Chaahe To
Aa.Nhe.N Sard Milii
Dil Ke Bojh Ko Dhu.Ndhalaa Kar Gayaa Jo Gamakhaar Milaa
Hamane To Jab ...

Bichha.D Gayaa... Bichha.D Gayaa Har Saathii Dekar
Pal Do Pal Kaa Saath
Kisako Furasat Hai Jo Thaame Diivaano.N Kaa Haath
Hamako Apanaa Saayaa Tak Aqasar Bezaar Milaa
Hamane To Jab ...

Isako Hii Jiinaa Kahate Hai.N To
Yuu.Nhii Jii Le.Nge
Uf Na Kare.Nge Lab Sii Le.Nge
Aa.Nsuu Pii Le.Nge
Gam Se Ab Ghabaraanaa Kaisaa, Gam Sau Baar Milaa
Hamane To Jab ...

Anybody interested in further understanding of such poetic beauty might leave comments.

Oh by the way, the genius who created this is Mr Sahir Ludhianvi....Respect !

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Ama'j'ing

Time : 4:30 PM
Date : 14th May, 2006 a Sunday

Hmm...

Just back from another 'reunion'......For a guy who had always felt sort of detached from 'the gang' near my old house, two reunions in two weeks might seem hard on the guy. But it was ok. The only thing hard to digest after this meeting was probably the pizza we ate.

The participants of this rendezvous were different. One significant difference I must say. After ages, I met Hemanth. And I must say, it felt good. It felt good to be in the midst of those old johnnies (Sheeni and Manu being the others....Altho sheeni i meet often, in the presence of the "boys" its a totally different setting). The chat topics were mostly on the amusing side obviously,sustaining heavily based on the events of the past. But there were some present life based updates (mostly from hemanth and lil from manu...you wont believe what all hemanth has been upto ! ), some clouds gathered in the atmos and we all limited ourselves to listening intently and raptly to the speaker, be the talk be about the movie that hemanth just finished making or manu's current love interest(Dont freak oh co red devil, not a lot of ppl who read this know u! :) )

But as i was saying, these meetings have a tendency to get to you a tad. Cos of all the memories that we no doubt, without fail, somehow, tend to relive. Most of them are happy. And that is the hardest part (FUcking crazy song by coldplay). It contrasts so much with the present, it leaves u with a feeling "ah! the simpler times !".........And of course no matter how detached i felt, there were so many ppl around.....I was never alone................................

(I wish I could just keep writing dots for a long time now....)

And of course there is that one person associated with my old neighborhood, who manages to crop up in the innards of my brain everytime i even think abt my past. Hemanth promptly brought the topic up just as we were heading homewards, after a nice cup of filter coffee (slowly becoming a huge fan) from kalmane coffee (THE jaynagar's THE hangout ! Rocks beyond all comprehension !) cos lets face it....He was very much part and parcel of what happened and hence brought it up....But I must say I was pleasantly surprised and caught off guard by this thoughtful enquiry by this obscure weird man......I told him in as calm a way as possible the existing situation, and we departed with a "Touch alli irana"..........

He he........

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Secret

I am holding onto a secret


The thing about secrets is, the more alien the person to u is who is the victim (aha! what a word the usage the a) of the secret, the more liable u are to just let it off ur chest and beam with happiness and pride....

But as it gets nearer and dearer to u, the more susceptible u are to ending up guarding the secret which puts u only, in more jeopardy....One slip of the tongue and the peppermint u are sucking on is down the drain (u get what i mean.....)

But this time, this is a matter so furious and ridiculous, that only one person other than me knows about it and its driving me crazy....He he......Ill hold onto it.....seems fun.......being kiddish again

Monday, May 08, 2006

Jolly Jolly Monday morning

"....And it was only fan ta C"

(Guitar strumming....)


"The wall was too high as u can C:"


(More Guitar strumming....)


"No matter how he tried he could NOT BREAK FREE!"


(Guitar again.....)

"And the worms ate into his brain!"

Sound of one mosquito buzzing "kuyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy", lil bit amplified......

Thursday, May 04, 2006

God

Before i get to the actual post, two things

1) This post is mostly in kannada written in english...so some ppl mite find this difficult to comprehend...Translation has been provided by Mr Kind Blogger aka Me
2)
John
Peter
Abraham
Mihailovic
Johnny
Alicia

Sheetal, Here are the "names" u asked me to take... I hope u r happy/satisfied :D

Namaskara, Ranga shankarakke swagatha...dayavittu tamma mobi

(yeno madthidya lo?!)

Idhu nenne "mukta" nalli nadeda sambhashanegalu....tunukugalu.....daridra, serial na hate nemmadiyaagi, sampoornavagi madakke bidode illa seetaram eethara scene galella torsi...Madhu, ninge ondu sannadaada update idu anta anko :P

"........Haagalla Arundhati, Nimage novvu maadbeku annodu nanna uddesha khandita aagirlilla....Neevu sukhavaagi, santoshadinda, utsaahadinda badukabeku annode nanna aase....aadre nimma santoshada vichara bandaaga naanu tumba swaarthi aagogtheeni arundhati.....Aa santoshakke karana naane aagirbeku, nimage naanu tumba santosha kodbeku, nanninda neevu ananda padi beku anta ansoke shuru agogatte...."

(huh!!!?! number 1)
Translation : I surely want to see u happy arundhati, but when it comes to ur happiness, I become selfish ! I start feeling that I want me to be the reason of ur happiness....I want to cause happiness in you....I want to bring u happiness in any form

".......Nimage arundhati avara mele moha hogilve? ....... Nimage enu huttadaaginda arundhati avara mele preeti itte? Illa thaane? Neevu arundhati avaranna paris ge karkondu hogi avara manakke kundu baro antha kelsa madakke hortidri...yaavaglu arundhati avara mane avarige kaata kodtidri neevu.....aadre paschyataapadinda, nimage avara mele ondu dina preeti huttitu....aa preeti huttiddu neevu nimminda ne anta bhaavisideera....adhu tappu....adhu bhagavantana ichche....aa preeti, arundhati avara melina gaurava, nimmannu olle manushyanannaagi parivartisitu...adhu kooda bhagavantana ichche aagitthu.....eega neevibbaru bere aguttiruvudu kooda aa bhagavanta ichche.....nanna tappu, nanna taayiya tappu anta bhavisodu ahankaara agatte.......idarinda kooda nimage ollede agatte bhaya pada bedi....yella bhagavanta ichche !........preeti shashvata anta bhaavisideera...adhu tappu ...."

Translation : You are still longing for arundati? Do u think that u loved arundhati since birth? Remember u troubled her family and caused her a lot of grief...But thru remorse and repentance, u started loving her one day..do u think the reason of that love was you? No ... It was the wish of The Lord....Thru the love, u changed as a man, u became a good person....That was the wish of The Lord too...Now that u are destined to part ways, that is the wish of The Lord too....To think that it is your or anybody else's fault is arrogance...It is always the Lord's wish....This will bring u good too, do not worry..U think love is permanent, forever? THAT is wrong !

(spoken like a true sage ! sikkapatte huh!?!?!)

Can this be true? Is it possible that u have no control over ur actions? Are u being guided and are just the machine doing the actual pumping of the gas and transmission of motion??? Or is all this a point of view to support u in moments of grief?

I did like the point about love tho....

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Snowball(s to you)ing effect !

Yup...Me is writing thick and fast posts.....It takes being written in no time with my super typing skills hence they are fast.....Most of them can fill up books, and thats how they are thick

Just a nice feeling, the night breeze washing over u and u listening to the masters of metal at night time !!! Here is a rather careless and wicked (so their image!!!!) set of lines

"...........And my ties are severed clean
The less I have the more I gain
Of this beaten path i reign.........."

Sudden Gnaaanodaya aaithu ! Onthara chenagide ansthu....thrill banthu.......life is all about such cheap thrills ansatte....Cheap gina, I might want to say shortlived, momentary bubbles of happiness that come and go "fufth" just like that within seconds.....There is no durable joy i guess....And amidst all this, we have sorrow to deal with tooo...cos of all that philosophical crap about balance....bevu bella....happy sad....aaaaaaaaah screw it ! Nange bella saaku? Yaavong beku bevu? Whoever cooks up these philosophies pa !! sheesh !

I better go to bed now illai ?

S.P : .song Metallica a from are above lines The

Questions

I ask too many questions....People who talk to me must get tired....Why this why that? WHat did u mean? Which one? When? Who said that? Who me?

Aaargh ! I just want to clarify....And either ppl talk out of turn/context or I am ridiculously slow sometimes...Thats the beauty of it....Sometimes my mind is like....Trrrrrrrrrrah ! Siestaaaaaaaa

Che

Monday, May 01, 2006

Being s(u)p(p)ortive

Yes this post is about being s(u)p(p)ortive about the contents/tpoic of main focus of this post... But i "expect" neither from my readers cos *****My Life Update****** I've recently realised that to expect is to sin and Its always ur fault/U are responsible for what happens.......I used to think that to expect "unrealistic" or "illogical" things was a gross error, but then so many expectations have just gone for a toss andre, I feel that right/wrong, reasonable/unreasonable have lost meaning for me....
Also, ppl hardly see ur point of view...when u are explaining that to the other person, they take out some butter, smear it on u, and smoothly turn the conv their side... (I've seen this happen....literally...I swear ! )
And oh oh oh ! Honesty hurts....De V RE !!!! How many marks there are on my ass of things coming back and biting me andre......Speak ur mind out and its back at u SNAP SNAP SNAP !!!! Eeshk !
******End of My Life Update*****


Tut Tut....Lets get to the core of this post, thru which I intend to have fun..... So me and my iPod decide to go get ourselves all sweaty n stuff (well it was mainly his idea, dont u know?) with some serious (Everything has to be very much thought abt and serious with me) shuttle ho! So we head out and find some bally young and old men swinging their rackets around, what ! And I jump in the fire and before I am blinking, Me and my sorry ass have been beaten quite severely (ouch!).... I say cmon maite ! You shud pick urself up now....And pick i did myself, only to be admonished again !! Well, this court aint lucky for me, what ! I thought to myself and shifted to pair up with an old johnny, with whom i made some progress but still lost to two young chappies, who looked down on me immediately after the game without fail.... (thats part and parcel of that place i go to...pros come there and use us poor blokes as practice material ! )

Now I get myself out there and am narrating the tale of two courts to my iPod, when i start pondering upon the reason for my inability...and then i realise that its not ME thats kirieked....What could poor old me, who hasnt touched a racket in a month, do in a land of strangers who play everyday ?!? So it came down to lack of that magical touch i know i possessed (thank u thank u far too kind ! :P )....And why was that? I didnt play enuf....Whom to play with? I know four blowkes who i could go to for assistance :

Blowke 1 : He's a simple guy....Quite quiet n all, dont u know? Travel takes up most of his day....And weekends just go by in the company of that amazing entity called sleep i guess....Dono much more abt this so wont comment

Blowke 2 : He's a dashing guy...but alas, a prey of the intoxicating and luring substance called sleep.....Also, he'd anyday prefer a stroll on brigade road window shopping to a sweaty, tiring game of some sport.... If u do get his time, of which u arent allowed much i guess, (NO NO NO SUNDAY!!!!) then when u ask him to turn up at around 9:15 he will surely be there for u at no less than 9:45 maybe 10 !

Blowke 3 : Alas, distance is against this man of some sporting intent.....He for all practical purposes doesnt live in Bangalore !! Also, u would wanto use him ideally for paying compliments to the ladies and making their cheeks go red and heating up the backside of their necks n stuff like that, what ! Lethal Weapon he is, dont u know?!

And last but the least....

Blowke 4 : I again do not know much abt this guy.....But i do know that he apparently sees only himself !! Wow.....that is a hard partner to play a sport with......And apparently he is scared....Now i know any straight aka heterosexual man should be afraid of sodomy, but this is a different kind of cock dude...........

Look, it eventually boils down to me....If my ONLY option is to go fight it out with the pros, who see right thru u (they dont notice u....its like u arent there), and get an occasional game in somehow and find some moments of thrill and bliss and whatnot shit in that, then so be it....J P Nagar sports club ! Here I come !!! :D